what is this space?

07 Jun, 2026

When I started this blog, I wanted it to be more distanced from my daily life or who I am in private. The first breach of that was my joining Xaya’s carnival in December which I really wanted to partake in and where I talked a bit about my sexuality. However, since I only had/have this one blog, I could only post my contribution here, so my one clear rule was broken. This started a chain reaction of me actually posting stuff that deviated from the stated purpose of being largely a log for my essays. I eventually drew in more aspects of myself while this blog became more academic with each topical post at the same time, so now you have posts about memes, slutty music, and frenemies sitting side by side with discussions of war, militarization, and tech criticism. I often chuckle at this mix of things.

So what is this space? I guess it’s whatever I am now. It exists to motivate me to write more about things I’m passionate about. It’s also a time capsule¹ for me to see how I thought about different things before compared to now, as my views and convictions are bound to change with time. Had I not had a place to share my thoughts in, I’d either dump them on friends in chat or person or just not think things through as much. It’s not like I would stop writing, reading, or thinking about certain topics; I would just stop caring about making my thoughts on them remotely as understandable to an outside reader—even to me as a future reader. I’m not trying to claim that my posts right now are generally understandable to everyone—that’s unfortunately not always true. Who my imagined audience is often morphs with every post which is evident by the writing style changing depending on the title. This stems from the fact this is a recreational project in which I sometimes write more informally and in other times as if I were practicing for my current academic studies and future work (post-graduation).

In recent months, I began citing literature when writing my essays. This has one simple reason: It has always bothered me about the internet that I was left to guess what someone else was referencing. This isn’t so bad when one is using a platform with hyperlinking, but often sources are referenced that aren’t available under a hyperlink without proper attribution for delving deeper into a topic. So I’m again left to guess what the fuck someone is talking about or what empirical, hopefully peer-reviewed studies back up their claims. I partially blame the rise of pseudo-intellectualism online on proper source attribution not becoming mainstream and holistic enough. So I decided to add citations and hyperlinks as much as possible as a service for anyone reading, including future me.² Sometimes I don’t feel like adding inline citations so all the reader (again, including future me) gets is a bibliography. While this is suboptimal, it’s still better than no source attribution at all. Still, I often feel weird making my blog all that serious, though anything else feels wrong.

So who is this space for? I’m not quite sure. This is a personal blog and simultaneously a scientific journal at times, in which I’m the only editor, publisher, and reviewer. I contemplated splitting my essays and borderline shitposts into two blogs, but that was only for a very short moment. This is who I am. The shitposts and the essays coexist in my head, and I felt it was only right to keep it that way on a blog under my own name. „Nobody Cares, Write Anyway,“ as the freshly debuted meta-blogging king, my friend Pirate, said. I might start tagging my untagged non-essays and essays, though, so the handful of people who read either can filter out the rest when browsing or in their RSS readers since Bear allows for following specific tags as opposed to the full blog feed.